I don't know
That's what I say when I'm just too LAZY to think about ANYTHING.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Dear diary,
went to the library today to study. intended to study chemistry. and yes i did study. finished environment and atmosphere (i don't know the correct name, but just do with it), and ammonia. but ammonia only done tys left section B.
loning has all of a sudden become my hobby. being alone isn't that bad afterall.
i miss my phone alot. it's only been one week. :( no phone = no music. haiz...
went to the beach again. but this time, only for a short while. less than 1 hour. somehow, many people went there. though usually it's deserted. the scenary is still as stunning as the last time i saw it. maybe more.
sorry today did nothing special so yea. bye. 伍家辉's 虽然我愿意 is nice! he looks like alan! omgzxsh... :D
i did not wanna distract myself so i tried studying alone. maybe it's effective in a way, but maybe it's not. though i did not think of you every second, but it delayed to every 5minutes. so i had to squeeze in the informations before my mind is filled with you again. i thought that i'm not as excited to see u again but my heart proved me wrong. when you went away, i thought that i could finally settle down and study. but it became worst. it's not 5mins now. it's every second. i force myself to read the book but i just kept reading and reading the same line. and even so, i did not understand abit of that sentence though i read it umpteen times. i had no choice but to give up studying.
i wanted to leave. but no, i cant. cos u just left. if i were to go now, i wud meet u. so i purposely waited another 15~20mins. cos by then, 15 wud have alr come and gone. i made a bet with myself on the way the bus stop. if i saw u there, it is fated. if i din see you there, i sud let go. i knew the latter wud happen. the chance was 99%. i looked hard at the bus stop. hoping to steal a glimpse of u. but no. there wasnt. dissapointed, i continued walking. suddenly, smth caught my eye. my heart beat so hard that i could feel it almost gonna burst. u were walking to the bus stop too. i couldnt believe my eyes. i won such bet a second time. i din know wad to say. so i flipped and looked hard at my tb. i jus couldn't believe u were there. u actually went to buy smth to eat. which i miscalculated. for someone told me ur heading home early for dinner. was that fate? i don't know.
the bus came but i didn't know. i was too obsessed with the bk. heaven took u away. mayb we're not meant for it. afterall. or issit just like in the movie? separated and bak again? i don't know. i really don't. though i've been pondering for so long. i hope i'll find the answer. someday.
beach is really a good place. somehow i always think about you there. i just secretly wished, someday u wud sit there with me there, just enjoy the breeze and the scenary. no conversation. just sitting there. if i had a moment like this, i hope the time freezes for eternity. but i guess, it'll never happen. 人生不如意事十之八九。
就算我们之间有什么难题，
黑夜我还想着你，
心碎人孤寂，
虽然我愿意。