I don't know

That's what I say when I'm just too LAZY to think about ANYTHING.

Monday, December 15, 2008

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

Gwendolyn Chia Cai Lin invites me for Christmas dinner. Did she invite you? No uh? AWWWWW... Haha. Must be that you're a bad child so Santa Clause never ask gwen to invite you. Haha, abit no link. But then, whatever lar. Lazy think of some links.

I hate POSB for god's sake. ALWAYS don't transact my cheque one. Kns. Made me almost go all the way to Bugis. But luckily I'm smart (like always), go check at the ATM first. I hate the phrase "Ledger Balance" sia. Always see the number swee swee but then cannot use. Kns.

My supervisor's gonna employ me till end of the month. SORRY WEILIN. Anyway, also partially because I think my mum's right. You work 3days per week though each day slightly more pay, you still lose out. Somemore the people at PTS are rather nice to me lar. Plus got direct bus, air con, free "tea time", no quota limit etc etc. Not bad lar. Anyway if I tiao cao xiao li will miss me one. Hahaha. FYI, she's more supervisor. And no, she's married. Or rather, engaged. She damn jolly lar. I think she auntie liao still want people call her jie jie. Hahahaha. I hope she don't reads my blog. HAHAHA.

Stupid cherngjye and his twilight. = =

Quite abit of people at PTS asked about you. = = Well, I don't know why, but it's weird without you around. I kept looking out for you at the bus stop like I always do. But you never appeared. I board the bus and took a seat. Still not quite used to not take a look where will you be seating. Everything's the same, but it's just lacking of that particular person. Which really made things really different. I went into Cheers, as usual. But you ain't there to pick up the Seventeen, take a few look and put it back. The lift seemed kinda empty with just me alone. It's kinda weird to not hold the door for you and hear that "thankyou". I'm just on the dot today. Maybe because "It's not good to be late?" That's so typical of you. Hahaha. Weird not to open that closet, and stuff in my bag. Weird to see the vacant chair. Weird to not hear the humming. Weird to not hear that singing. Weird to not hear that "Xiao li, wo hao le." Weird to not go for lunch together. Weird to not help you eat the left overs. Weird to not offer you that tissue. Weird to not hear them teasing you of a giraffe. Weird to not see you when I come out from the toilet. It's that lift again. Weird to not seeing you turning back to find me amidst the crowd. Weird to not board the bus together. Weird to not see that MP3 and that white earpiece. That loneliness... For the whole day. WHERE WERE YOU? I walked to yingqi's block. Supposedly to collect cherngjye's twilight. But then, it's that block. The block you live in. I thought of the times we walked across that road. That smile. That "goodbye". That satisfaction. Maybe it's nothing to you. But I captured every moment with you with my heart. I could even make ten albums with it. But what good will it do? When there's no one to share it with?